For once in your life,`have you ever listened to a song that makes you feel; It all makes sense? Like those word-by-word are really attached together and make sense to your life that you are living now? Their meanings mean a lot. It breaks your heart and all. But hey, at least we can feel good about it; Well to know that the writer of the song feels you. Like, "Hey bro, you said my words. I feel you. I am sad as well." Sadly, we wish we were the one who wrote the song, right? Well not sadly, but funnily. So, this song really has a lot of meanings to myself. Well I hope you enjoy the song. Don't forget to open the lyrics of the song first! Cheers and have a good day. Stay happy.
Hi, hello, hey or kindly - Assalamualaikum. So today, I want to talk about... People who know me well, they know that I love writing. I've always loved poems - My favourite writer is an American poet known as Edgar Allan Poe. Well he died a few hundred years ago. But anyway, today as I don't know what to blog about; I copied and pasted my old poem that was written months ago. It is called The Past. It's a bit gayish, but hell, I have sentimental feelings.
"The Past" by Zarul Iqram
The time you asked me why I love you,
I couldn't really answer, but I told you I just do.
It was such a shame that I couldn't express my true feelings,
But I knew at that time, that I really did love you.
I should have said better.
But you always had a fuzzy mind,
Questioning every point you might.
You have to know that deep inside,
You are the most wonderful person that I've ever known.
As a friend, as a company.
You said, Fate. - Fate brought you here,
And you didn't know what lies for you in the future.-
You said all these, but I had already got a plan,
That in the future, you were the one I wanted to be with.
But time flies.
And all these are only words, words are lighter than the wind,
It got carried away and at one point, they got lost forever.
Once, in the year of 2010; I made one big step of moving in. And now, in this year of 2011; I'm going to make another big step of moving on. Catch you guys later and yes, God bless. You guys need blessings.
Just if you had the chance to read this; I wish things between us were easier. I admit, I need a person like you; A friend like you. I need such care from you, your attention; Tell me how was your day; How are you feeling. Well enough said, maybe it's true, that I love you. You did fill the gaps of my life. And yet, now I miss you. I miss things as they were.
Usually there are two splitting ways directing to their very own ways at the every end of a road - Then it comes the time to decide; Which way to take, to walk, to hug, to smile, to say, to touch. My decisions were always right - But in no time, when I finally decided it, I can easily, accidentally jumped into the other side of the road; Just like nothing ever happened. In this case, I'd blame my heart - not the head. Why?
(I will start to question myself, "Oi, Zarul, why did you even walk on this pavement while you at the first place were planning not to?")
My best advice always comes from the head - My head is more rational adviser. It has a long-term or futuristic method, it knows what can and what can't bring me down.
My least best advice always comes from the heart - The heart is always think of chances and risk to take the least chances of probabilities. Though if I already picture the chances like "This looks like a 20% chance - Well hm, try je lah." See? How rational the head is, it makes the counting 20%, but the heart says it all - it says try; try out of nothing; There is where depression come.
So whatever it is, my heart, the heart, it shows what I really am, who I really am - It is me. But the head, is only the initial sparks. Head and heart are no friend.
However, the winner is not the head, not the mind. No one wins, but the loser, well you name it.
Hey people, how have you been? I don't want to blog much. I might as well just crapping the shit out - But all I want to say is; Today marks the half of 2011 as it is the 1st of July. The first half, it wasn't a great half, I must say; I ain't productive, most were wasted - My time especially - But yes, I'm not going to feel sad or regret about it, the roads were chosen and made by me myself. It is still a long way to go - And I shall not give up, I shall not put down my expectations, I shall not change a lot, I shall not give up. Yes I said "Give Up" twice, note that.
But what can I do with this experience of a wasted half? I'm going to make it as my "learning"; That will help me, lead me for a better life.
So, whatever it is, it was, it's gonna be, it will be, it won't be, it wouldn't be; For the other-half of this year; I hope it will be a better one than the past half. I shall always remind myself - "Everything is fine, and you are doing awesome, Zarul." I need that kind of wisdom. I think I'll stop here.
So farewell guys, I hope you will have a better half as well - God bless you, peace and love.