The Blog, This Blog, The New Blog.

THIS BLOG IS DEAD!
Now all can stop viewing this blog, the story of this blog has already ended long time ago and has been replaced with the new blog as a new chapter of my life, started since early of Jun or July.
Some of you have to start reading the new blog, it is private invitations - That I had and will send it to yous, some of you.
Well, take care, and cheers, people! God bless you and Happy Ramadhan!

Song That Makes Sense

For once in your life,`have you ever listened to a song that makes you feel; It all makes sense? Like those word-by-word are really attached together and make sense to your life that you are living now? Their meanings mean a lot. It breaks your heart and all. But hey, at least we can feel good about it; Well to know that the writer of the song feels you. Like, "Hey bro, you said my words. I feel you. I am sad as well." Sadly, we wish we were the one who wrote the song, right? Well not sadly, but funnily.
So, this song really has a lot of meanings to myself. Well I hope you enjoy the song. Don't forget to open the lyrics of the song first! Cheers and have a good day. Stay happy.

RIVERMAYA - BALISONG

Lyrics link

The Past

Hi, hello, hey or kindly - Assalamualaikum. So today, I want to talk about... People who know me well, they know that I love writing. I've always loved poems - My favourite writer is an American poet known as Edgar Allan Poe. Well he died a few hundred years ago. But anyway, today as I don't know what to blog about; I copied and pasted my old poem that was written months ago. It is called The Past. It's a bit gayish, but hell, I have sentimental feelings.

"The Past" by Zarul Iqram

The time you asked me why I love you,

I couldn't really answer, but I told you I just do.

It was such a shame that I couldn't express my true feelings,

But I knew at that time, that I really did love you.

I should have said better.

But you always had a fuzzy mind,

Questioning every point you might.

You have to know that deep inside,

You are the most wonderful person that I've ever known.

As a friend, as a company.

You said, Fate. - Fate brought you here,

And you didn't know what lies for you in the future.-

You said all these, but I had already got a plan,

That in the future, you were the one I wanted to be with.

But time flies.

And all these are only words, words are lighter than the wind,

It got carried away and at one point, they got lost forever.

I didn't expect less.

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STEP

Once, in the year of 2010; I made one big step of moving in. And now, in this year of 2011; I'm going to make another big step of moving on. Catch you guys later and yes, God bless. You guys need blessings.

I Don't Know How to Tell You, to Prove to You Anymore - The Fact That I've Fallen For You

Just if you had the chance to read this; I wish things between us were easier. I admit, I need a person like you; A friend like you. I need such care from you, your attention; Tell me how was your day; How are you feeling. Well enough said, maybe it's true, that I love you. You did fill the gaps of my life. And yet, now I miss you. I miss things as they were.

I Talked to Myself but never Listened

Usually there are two splitting ways directing to their very own ways at the every end of a road - Then it comes the time to decide; Which way to take, to walk, to hug, to smile, to say, to touch. My decisions were always right - But in no time, when I finally decided it, I can easily, accidentally jumped into the other side of the road; Just like nothing ever happened. In this case, I'd blame my heart - not the head. Why?

(I will start to question myself, "Oi, Zarul, why did you even walk on this pavement while you at the first place were planning not to?")

My best advice always comes from the head - My head is more rational adviser. It has a long-term or futuristic method, it knows what can and what can't bring me down.

My least best advice always comes from the heart - The heart is always think of chances and risk to take the least chances of probabilities. Though if I already picture the chances like "This looks like a 20% chance - Well hm, try je lah." See? How rational the head is, it makes the counting 20%, but the heart says it all - it says try; try out of nothing; There is where depression come.

So whatever it is, my heart, the heart, it shows what I really am, who I really am - It is me. But the head, is only the initial sparks. Head and heart are no friend.

However, the winner is not the head, not the mind. No one wins, but the loser, well you name it.

That Two Halves of 2011

Hey people, how have you been? I don't want to blog much. I might as well just crapping the shit out - But all I want to say is; Today marks the half of 2011 as it is the 1st of July. The first half, it wasn't a great half, I must say; I ain't productive, most were wasted - My time especially - But yes, I'm not going to feel sad or regret about it, the roads were chosen and made by me myself. It is still a long way to go - And I shall not give up, I shall not put down my expectations, I shall not change a lot, I shall not give up. Yes I said "Give Up" twice, note that.

But what can I do with this experience of a wasted half? I'm going to make it as my "learning"; That will help me, lead me for a better life.

So, whatever it is, it was, it's gonna be, it will be, it won't be, it wouldn't be; For the other-half of this year; I hope it will be a better one than the past half. I shall always remind myself - "Everything is fine, and you are doing awesome, Zarul." I need that kind of wisdom. I think I'll stop here.

So farewell guys, I hope you will have a better half as well - God bless you, peace and love.

Maha Satu

You know; it has been awhile since I last wrote a poem. The last time was months back ago I suppose? But today, I wrote one; It is lack of skill and emotion. It's too bold and blunt. Cheers!

MAHA SATU - Zarul Iqram

Terjagaku daripada lamunan fenomena mimpi;

Badanku roboh dan jiwaku ranap tersedar; Aku menyebut "Alhamdulillah."

Nipis pahalaku, tebal dosaku;

Getir di dalam dada yang sebak; Aku tutur "Astaghfirullahalazim."

Sedar bertapa kecil diriku, bertapa kecil dunia;

Aku tunduk tanda bertapa besarnya Dia; Dan aku ujar "Allahu akbar."

Permulaanku bermula dari-Nya, penamatku ditamatkan oleh-Nya;

Hanya Dia yang mengukir jalan-jalan ku; Aku percaya "Lailahaillallah."

Hari ini hari aku sedar, hari aku terjaga; hari aku mengerti;

Bahawa patuh ku, taat ku, cinta ku, pasrah ku, setia ku, fanatik ku, hanya untuk-Mu, Ya-Allah.

Bisik perlahan bibir ku ke hati ku; Aku mengucap "Ashadu an la ilaha illa'llah wa Allah Ashad anna Muhammadan Rasululu'llah."

Burden

Hi people,

This week, I thought I had leave a burden off of my shoulder - But I don't feel light nor easy; I feel even more toilsome and hefty. Maybe the burden better be right back on my shoulder, I'd appreciate that even more. Well don't matter that, people say, time heals everything - but I don't want time to heal that, I want someone to heal me. It's not debt, it is something else, I call it life. Bitch, emotional is suck - I am so gay to feel this way - I don't deserve to feel all these. Man shalln't worry - But well, I once a happy person; I didn't even care all these small silly matters. But, hell you know, sometimes small things are important; small things matter most - Like, hmm, I don't know, but it does - sometimes, I'm sure of it. HA! This one, like.... recycling! The aluminium, paper and plastic; It helps the world - One example is enough. Ugh, I hate writing in a bad mood - No, not bad mood, sorry, It's a mood that I don't want to feel. I don't know is that a bad mood or good mood, but I don't want this mood. Man, I'm talking nonsensely-personal!

Ah, did I get a lil bit too personal that annoys you? Sorry. Just feel like to jot-it-down to burst it out. Have a nice day, God bless us all. You, me and the people we love, cheers!

I Speak to God

So, if you read my other posts, you know that I have gone through ups and downs - I haven't found the peace yet, but still trying. I'm not a good Muslim, I admit. However, my faith is strong, I know every religion is right - to brighten us up, only the shallows would disagree. But, with every religion that I've known - It seems like everywhere I go, Muhammad's revelations are incontestable. I mean, it is more logical and acceptable. Well not that others ain't logical, but I think they are a lil' bit incomplete - They are sketchy and unelaborated.

So anyway, it's not that I want to start a war or hurt anyone's feeling, the Jews, Christians, Buddhists, Hindus, Muslim myself - we are all peace minded, aren't we?

So if you are hurt, I am really sorry for being such a pain in the ass.

And back to the story,
In search of god, I grabbed a book written by J. Rumi, a Persian man. His picture is on your right. I must say, I'm quite a fan of Jalaluddin Rumi's writing; I think you guys should really consider reading his writing that has aged for 800 years - For a start, simply entitled "Allah". Real sorry if the writing disappoints you, have a nice day or goodnight!

I Can't Go That Far

This is a story which happened a few months back,
I took a train, I stopped at a station call by a name. I felt home - I stick around for some quite time. All I can say is - I had fun, I was happier, I like this place - No, I love this place.

But sometimes thunders hit, sometimes it rains and sometimes it's cold winter - Matter what, I stood by this place as long as I could, even when it rains or whatsoever; But sadly, I got my limit - When I had enough, I regrettably would just take a train and drop myself at other places - just to make myself feel a lil' bit safer, but not too far, just a safe distance, but I was wrong.

Well to tell you the truth, other places ain't as beauty as this place, ain't as decorated as this place - Being away from this place only reminds me how much I need this place, so I took a train and headed back to this place; I wish I could stay here as long as.

So that's the story of how I love.

Who's winning anyway?

So hello guys, how have you been doing? I hope everything is getting better - I pray for you. Well, I'm doing not so very well. Always uncertain - the matters of study, life and ... well majorly it is about my life. I just got back from Jengka for no reason; Like why did I even drive back home? I even questioned myself - I don't have the answer. I'm so confused now, life is confusing - That smiles, are they fake or real - That talks, are they fictitious or facto - That loves, well love is love it has never been certain, even that so called darling couple Romeo and Juliet suck in love life.

Back to the story,
So, why am I back here in Klang again? I don't know. I don't feel so good - I feel betrayed. I feel betrayed by life, wonder why? Well maybe it is because I have betrayed God for so many times, simple as that. So, I wish one day I would settle down and learn to love the fact that life is fucking uncertain. Many directions are attacking; I have to dodge and some hit me right on the face. Well when it hit me, surely I feel pain - And when I dodge, surely I would feel relief. But where's the win?

I'm not pointing my finger at anyone - I know it is always our own faults. Man, life is life and this is life and I have to live the life and search for a better life. Or I just sway. Well did you guys get what I mean? Well come on! Don't you feel me? Don't you get it? Hm, if no is your answer - Well, actually I'm sad, I am very very very sad - that's it, just. I need some enthusiastic, especially from..

Between me and my Business Studies

As you all know, I've never liked Business Studies - Business Management. Not even a tiny bit, a single bit, half bit. They are everything about calculations, procedures, environments, lawful acts and whatsoever, it is not versatile; They are all pretty useless to me, maybe not to someone but to me, it is. They are all common sense, they are all pretty boring. With all my heart, I hate the courses. I wasn't interested in continuing this at first, second, third and whatever number follows; But the time is up, the show must go on. I need to buckle down for one more plus year. The fifth semester is on; Better this or nothing.

ADD-ONS:

But there are stories behind my studies, and this one, my IT lecturer congratulated me on Facebook Chat. This is pretty irrelevant; But this kind of thing - personal interactions like congratulating - to know that I've done a pretty good job on something that has tormented me for hundred decades - this kind of thing really keeps me going. Cheers and respect, lads!

Please Please Please, The Smiths (Part Two)

Related post, you guys can check it out here: http://zaruliqramisblogging.blogspot.com/2011/05/please-please-please-smiths.html

Last time, on a topic in my blog; I talked about how my comment being the most thumbs up on a video, "The Smiths - Please Please Please, Let Me Get What I Want". It was a reply to two men; they were debating - a man opposing Islam, and a man defending Islam. My comment is still the top thumbs up, though. But I just wanted to share this with you guys. So here's an update - I find it quite funny though. You may say "DUH" but I'm a bit overjoyed because this rarely happen to me. Hihi.

Note that - TheStarkeysKlang is me.

You might want to check the link on YouTube : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMQbzLrvwlE&feature=related

CHEERS!

McDonald's and Paul The Movie

What did you have for dinner, today? Was it good? Was it Mom's?

By the way, my dinner went like this; Today, my friends and I, each one of us had two McChickens - Ridzwan, Skeper and Azzat. Thanks to Azzat for his buy-one-free-one coupon. Another bite we could die of overeat. Well, McDonald's promotions are quite intense lately. Last month it was 2 ala carte of Family Breakfast with a minimum order of 5 ringgit - We would buy a cup of Iced Milo and "viola" two Family Breakfasts for our tummy. Imagine how my friends and I went into the McDonald's, each one of us with the coupons in our hands, 5 orang equals to 10 Family Breakfasts on our table. Haha. Lantak, malu memang malu. But McChicken always has a smaller physical, so today tak malu sangatlah.

PAUL;

After that dinner, we went to the cinema; a movie called Paul; It is a sci-fi comedy, rude alien guy something like that, I'm not here to tell you the plot. Funny, we had a good laugh. Yeah, we kind of had a great time today, but we looked like some bunch of losergays together. Forever alone people. Sad. But to you all, good day!

Football, Kelantan, Selangor and Our Pact

Hello Hi;

Do you guys still remember last week when Kelantan beaten my state club, Selangor FA by 5-1 in the Semi-final?

It was very sad indeed, it is still. Selangor should be the Giant; Beat the crap out, not shamelessly beaten, awful. My friends and I were in the stadium, sadly. We paid the RM15 ticket, entered with pride, with red and yellow stripes, we knew that Kelantan would definitely be a stronger side; But historically, Selangor didn't deserve a 5-1 defeat. We were expecting a narrow win; Hell, we left before the final whistle. Hihi. Come on, 5-1. Plus, we didn't want to get stuck in the traffic jam. Seriously.

Our Pact;

So in response of this Kelantan big win, my friends and I - Namely, Azzat and Skeper; We made a pact; Something we agreed upon, we committed to not go out and eat at any Kelantanese Restaurant for an unimaginable time of five days; Yes, takkan lepak and makan kat mana-mana kedai Kelantan untuk lima hari. HAHAHA. So, the 5th day is today; Can't wait for my first Nasi Paprik in 5 days tomorrow!

Live Fast, Die Young and Leave a Good Looking Corpse

*If I make it to 27, I consider myself lucky!*

I don't think I am dying of cancer or whatever diseases, but I think I am going to die in a common fashion way- Accident, car accident to be precise.

I hardly see myself getting married before I die; Having children and all; Even graduating. So sad. I think the percentage of I'm getting hit or hit someone that can cause death is very high though.

I am so chill because, I know we cannot outrun fate, cannot run from God, God decides.

So very lately, this thing became the top news in my head - Relevantly, I had nightmares of accidents, car accidents, swimming accidents and even homicides - Semua mati punya kes. Four days straight! Yes, four days, it's like a bang after a bang after a bang and after a bang. Bosanlah; If I am really going to die young, die already lah, no need for nightmares!

The Situations Today

Today,

Life is maneuvering but pretty much the same; Nothing major happened today. But somehow, everyday I wish my life would be different from any other day before; Life is demanding I know. I need something to intercept my days, be it tomorrow or next day after tomorrow, days after; I don't care, but come on, I'm having my holiday, it should be fun. It should be the release-of-my-tensions-after-exhausting-exams; You get what I mean? I need something cheerful, that can make me shout out loud "Today is different!" And make everyone around me jeling kerek at me and think to themselves "Man, this guy is living his dream, I should ask him how did he do it!" And I would sambung with senyum bongkak, tangan silang kat dada. But no, this is not real. But yes, I need this kind of feeling!

Anyhow, I still have my feet stand up tall and straight; And in my mind -

"It's not the end of the world, things always bullshitting me, and I should care less."

Again; Back to Today.

I woke up as *early* as evening started to end. A friend called asking me to join our everyday thing; A Frisbee game. I didn't play well today; Come on, I just woke up. I am better kalau segar, can baling until langit and tangkap balik hundred times until everyone feds-up and balik because they won't get the chance to play. Hihihi. So, back to the game; that game today, it was a tired one, really. Well not really lah, but simply tired lah.

After that Frisbee, we go minum-minum and lepak, jeling at Satria Neos Club, "You guys so kayalah." - in my mind. After lepak, we decided to do something instead, So we lifelessly drove to Cyber Cafe and play this addictive game called, Call of Duty. After the game ended, lepak again - Shanmuga in Bukit Tinggi - someplace near my house; Musa was fooling the waiter, kesian. But hey, this is not a bedtime story; So that's all for my day today. It was dull, but my friends were around. Thank You me mates.